Why I'm So Desperate for Jesus
Coming from a place of abuse, anger, rejection and shame to a place of peace, love, fulfillment and complete acceptance, is life changing. I have experienced the consequences of sin and the emptiness of a life without Christ and there's nothing from my past that I desire! I am so appreciative of the work of the cross, the love of the Father and the fellowship I have with the Holy Spirit. For me, there's no other life and definitely nothing to go back to!
My nature is filled with stress and anxiety. My mind replays stupid things I've said and the regrets of mistakes I've made can eat away at me. I can even be very self-conscious and insecure. That's my nature, but not who I am by His Spirit! It's interesting to me that even though I've been serving God for so many years, I can easily revert back to those feelings when I get too busy to spend enough time with Jesus. By His Spirit I'm transformed and all the things that by nature are hindrances in my life become testimonies of God's goodness and transforming power. You see, my desperate need for Jesus directly correlates with my weakness. I'm a wreck without Him, which makes my weaknesses a blessing... they chase me into His arms and keep me there!
So, how do you deal with stress? Medications? Yoga? Alcohol? Sex? Shopping? I'm sorry to say, but many in the Body of Christ are chasing after anything that will give them relief without experiencing the source of peace! I know I say it over and over again, but above all else... SEEK JESUS! Find scriptures that will minister to your heart about your particular situation and washes your mind from the filth, darkness and despair of this world. I get it! I understand why people turn to drugs and even end it all! This life is hopeless and hard without Him. Simply being a Christian can leave you disillusioned and disappointed. You've accepted Christ but things haven't changed or maybe it's even gotten worse!
The blessings of an intimate relationship with God does not come by osmosis and peace of mind isn't automatic with salvation. It's in the security that comes from our relationship with Jesus and knowledge and practice of His Word that we grow and find fulfillment. You are absolutely saved by grace, but don't become stagnant and satisfied at that juncture. There's so much more of His presence, power and love to delve into and experience!
Just start showing up. Set daily time aside to work on your relationship. Make it important and your first priority! Share your heart, appreciation, praise and love with Him. Don't feel anything? Keep showing up and wait on Him! It's a holy desperation that's necessary! One that's keeps knocking until the door to His presence is opened... and you'll find Him there, where He's always been... Just waiting for you to get hungry enough to enter in!
Yeah... I'm desperate for Jesus! How about you!?
2 Corinthians 12:9 (NLT) Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.
Psalm 84:1-2 (NLT) How lovely is your dwelling place, O Lord of Heaven’s Armies. I long, yes, I faint with longing to enter the courts of the Lord. With my whole being, body and soul, I will shout joyfully to the living God.
Psalm 62:5-8 (NLT) Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress where I will not be shaken. My victory and honor come from God alone. He is my refuge, a rock where no enemy can reach me. O my people, trust in him at all times. Pour out your heart to him, for God is our refuge.
Matthew 7:7-8 (NKJV) “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.
2 Corinthians 13:14 (NLT) May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all.