Flawed but Not Forgotten
We all know ourselves to some extent. We are well aware of the struggles we've experienced, our weaknesses and failures. Unfortunately, there are also things that we may be in denial about or just don't realize are a part of our nature and character. We need to ask the Lord to reveal those areas to us. He may lay the answer on your heart, expose it through circumstance or sometimes He uses people…that one can be very painful, but instead of running in fear, being hurt or hiding with pain & embarrassment, we need to deal with it head on.
There's no one we should desire to please more than Jesus. His love is sweet and like none other. My heart's desire is to keep growing closer to Him and moving deeper into His presence. I want my relationship to be uninhibited and unhindered.
We must cry out for Him to reveal the dark crevices of our soul. What is hidden there? Is there something that remains from childhood? Is there pain and anger that will reveal itself as those buttons are pushed? Are there remnants of fear, insecurity and doubt that keep us from going to the next level with God and prevent us from being effective for His Kingdom?
We have to realize that we are human and imperfect and as He reveals our flaws, we must draw from His strength to change. No, we can't do it on our own, but we must realize our weakness and rely on the Holy Spirit to walk us through the purging process as we crucify the flesh that has held us captive. Don't withdraw from God in shame, but admit your flaws, repent and draw close enough to Him to know His heart, hear His voice and experience His life changing presence.
Psalm 139:23-24 (NLT) Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.
Psalm 26:2 (NKJV) Examine me, O Lord, and prove me; Try my mind and my heart.
2 Corinthians 13:5-7 (NKJV) Examine yourselves as to whether you are in the faith. Test yourselves. Do you not know yourselves, that Jesus Christ is in you?—unless indeed you are disqualified. But I trust that you will know that we are not disqualified. Now I pray to God that you do no evil, not that we should appear approved, but that you should do what is honorable, though we may seem disqualified.