I am not satisfied with my relationship with the Holy Spirit, I need more and more and more of His presence! The deeper the waters, the more I have to completely trust in Him. If I were to go out into the middle of the ocean and all I had with me was a single life-vest, I would have all of my trust in that life-vest to keep me safe from my surroundings, the unknown of what lies beneath the waves, and I would want it to be as tight and secure as possible so I would have the confidence that I would not drown and die in the waters.
The Holy Spirit is my life-vest, and I am desiring to go further into the waters - the complete unknown - so I am forced to trust in Him alone! No cell-phone, no wi-fi, no calls for help, just me and Him as I learn more about His heart and how to move forward in my calling.
Spending this alone time with Him is what enables me to become better at everything. To be the wife and mother I am called to be, I need to meet with the Holy Spirit every day. To be the pastor and teacher I am called to be, I must spend more time with the Holy Spirit - building our relationship so I can learn to flow with Him as He speaks through me. The less time I have with Him before a message, the more my flesh speaks out, and it has a lesser impact on the lives of those I'm ministering to. But, when I am able to get alone with Him and rest, and find my peace in Him, then what I speak is not of me, but of Him and He is able to touch the hearts of those who hear.
What does it mean to go deeper with God? Deep means: extending far down from the top or surface; very intense or extreme. I don't want to have a relationship with God that is just acknowledging Him on the surface, I want to go further, I want to have understanding of Him and what the scriptures mean and why certain passages are in there - what do they mean for me, today? I never want to grieve the Holy Spirit or put Him in a box, I want to experience all God has for me, I don't mind if it gets intense or extreme - I don't know anyone who has a deep relationship with God that just lives a mediocre life with Him. Going to church will never be enough - it's the alone time, with the door shut - no distractions, that leads us into intimacy with Jesus. When you see public power manifested through someone, it's because of their private prayer life. Those who desire the power of God but never seem to obtain it, need to seek Jesus all the more! I want to be so close to the Holy Spirit that my shadow heals the sick, just as it did with Peter.
So wherever you are with God today, desire more! I do not want to get before God and see all that my life could have been; all we need to do is get with Him and ask - with the motive of doing more for the Kingdom!
Isaiah 43:2 (NLT) When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.
Psalm 42:7 (AMPC) [Roaring] deep calls to [roaring] deep at the thunder of Your waterspouts; all Your breakers and Your rolling waves have gone over me.
Acts 5:14-15 (AMP) More and more believers in the Lord, crowds of men and women, were constantly being added to their number, to such an extent that they even carried their sick out into the streets and put them on cots and sleeping pads, so that when Peter came by at least his shadow might fall on one of them [with healing power].
James 4:2-3 (NLT) Yet you don’t have what you want because you don’t ask God for it. And even when you ask, you don’t get it because your motives are all wrong—you want only what will give you pleasure.